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So, I guess cancer has formed in the lining of my small intestine.
The cancer may soon grow and start to block my intestine. And, I can feel a lump in my abdomen.
I'm currently taking TS1
which is, I believe, stopping the cancer cells from dividing. My doctor recently suggested that I try CDDP, which is an old drug.
The risk is that my kidneys may stop working, and I will need to go to the hospital for a few hours every three days to use
a kidney machine for the rest of my life. It seems like quite a risk. I could also keep taking the TS1 and hope that all will
be well. Either way, I am taking a risk. Surgery may cause new growths of cancer cells in other areas. So,
I'm going to take a few weeks to decide. *Also, to let you know, I was hospitalized for a week a week ago. My small intestine
somehow got bent and the fluids stopped, causing a lot of pain. I was eventually given a pain killer, which felt quite nice,
I must say. I soon threw up and things got better. For a few days, I was fed intravenously. I lost 9 kg, now I'm down
to 98 kg. *How many is that in dog years?* For now, I am feeling just fine as long as I keep taking the pain killers.
Such is life. I thought I'd let you all know.
Howard
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Banishment to Sado
On the twelfth day of the ninth month, I incurred the wrath of the government authorities, and I am
to leave for the province of Sado on the tenth day of the tenth month of this year.
My original aim in studying was to master the Buddhist teachings, so that I might attain Buddhahood
and thereby also save the people to whom I am indebted. I always assumed that, on the path of attaining Buddhahood, one is
certain to meet some great trial that will demand of him that he be willing to give up his life; only then can one become
a Buddha. And already, just as the sutra states, I have been cursed and vilified, attacked with swords and staves, rocks and
tiles, and banished again and again. I therefore believe that I am reading the Lotus Sutra with my entire being. My faith
increases all the more and I am confident of my future existence. Should I die, I will surely save each one of you as well.
In India a person called the Venerable Aryasimha was beheaded by King Dammira, and Bodhisattva Aryadeva
was murdered by a Brahman. In China, a person called Chu Tao-sheng was banished to Mount Su, and the Learned Doctor Fa-tao
was branded on the face and exiled south of the Yangtze River. All these men suffered persecution on account of the virtue
of the Lotus Sutra and for the sake of the Buddhist Law.
I, Nichiren, am the son of a chandala family who lived near the seashore in Tojo in Awa Province, in
the remote countryside of the eastern part of Japan. To discard my body, which would otherwise decay in vain, for the sake
of the Lotus Sutra will be like exchanging rocks for gold. None of you should lament for me. Please convey what I have said
to the priest Dozen-bo. I had also thought of writing to the nun of the manor, but because of my present circumstances, she
may no longer wish to be reminded of me. Should the opportunity arise, please tell her what I have said.
Nichiren
The tenth month
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